In love with a suicidal patient

Chapter 2

    "Chris, Chris... don't… don't do this...nooo". I woke up sweating and my heart was beating faster than usual. Why? Why had I seen her in my dream and why did she try to stop me? What is going on? What is happening to me?", Thought after thought ran through my mind the rest of the night and before you could blink an eyelid,the sun could be seen slowly rising. I got up from my bed and went into the restroom to relieve myself. After that I stood over the sink to wash my hands and it was during this brief moment that I got a quick glance at the mirror in front of me and I nearly cried at the sight. My eyes had eye bags under them and I don't mean the type you get after missing one night rest, oh no.. these were bigger than that and they came as a result of insomnia and stress, slightly above my cheek was a black spot that I had gotten from my father while I was trying to defend myself,my eyeballs were white, a little too white. You can't see the red veins anymore because I don't eat right,my hair is a mess but it's always tucked away under a cap and my lips look like winter paid a visit to them. I looked terrible and I felt worse but who do I talk to? There is no one to complain to. After I had my bath and dressed up,I went downstairs to meet my mom sleeping in the sitting room. She's been doing this a lot and it's starting to affect her back but she won't tell you, I see her struggle each time she's preparing a meal for the family or entertaining her friends and my heart bleeds for her. I decided not to wake her up and just get something from the fridge before heading to school. I open the fridge and the only thing I see is a stick of butter and a carrot (it turns out that today is the day mom goes to the market to fill the fridge with food stuffs). I grab the carrot and head out but not before getting a small blanket to cover mom up and planting a soft kiss on her forehead. I get to school 5mins early and decide to eat my carrot before anyone arrives. I enter my classroom and take a seat at the back before eating my carrot. I had been looking out the window and was lost in thought when I heard the door open but who I saw left me speechless.. it...it was her.. the girl from the market. Luckily she didn't see me so I just put my head in the table and as luck may have it, school had just begun and other students were already in class.       

     The rest of the day went by slowly but I noticed that she kept looking at me whenever she got the chance and this made me nervous..what do I do?...*Rings*.. the school bell brought me back and I made a plan to run like crazy but I was too late,she was already standing in front of me and she was….she was smiling. "Why was she smiling? Oh no.. this is not good? What did she hear about me?" I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize she was talking until she slightly tapped my arm. "Hey, are you alright?" She asked and at that moment every sound in my body vanished but I had to do something or else she would think otherwise and start assuming things. I nodded and her smile increased.  

"You're that boy I ran into the other day right? I'm really sorry for pushing you,I was only trying to avoid a man carrying stuff and I slipped. I'm really sorry. Oh and I'm Pearl by the way, nice to meet you" she said and she held out her hand for a handshake. I must have taken an eternity to respond because I kept looking at her hand and back to mine and then back to her before I finally took hers and shook it and you won't believe the next thing I did… I ran….again.. stupid I know but I couldn't stay there much longer and I had to be home before mom starts to worry. I got home to meet an empty house,so I just took a glass of water and climbed up to my room, locked the door,fell on the bed and slept off. I woke up to the sound of mom and dad arguing and I simply closed my eyes again and forcefully fell asleep… "I'm getting tired".